So yes, getting super busy with reports and procedures and coordination! This happened the last time I went on vacation. I've been working about 70 hours a week, with a big headache when I get home.
I was writing my personal statement in my application to the Red Cross yesterday, and I couldn't help but reflect on my personal role here. It's a question that's ongoing and that I don't think will go away. I've felt empowered by my coworkers and the people around me, but also skeptic by the actions of other humanitarian actors and the Congolese themselves. I don't want to get too close to some people, as I know they'll try to ask me for money. I want to help them and become friends, but I don't know how that's possible. One of the guards was asking for books to read, and I lent him some.. the next day, he asked me for money.
Working abroad is full of contradictions and questioning about yourself, the history that's our legacy, and how you can make an impact all the while contextualizing yourself in the environment. I've found that this experience has taught me a lot about working in a humanitarian organization, working in a country with a history of corruption and horrow, and working with people whose status in life is very different from yours.
The work continues, but I feel involved as I'm participating in evaluation visits, hiring people, drawing contracts, and helping to support programs. It's great, but I wish I had more time to reflect while at work.
Well, until next time... just a few things I needed to get off my chest.
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